11.04.2010

BAH!


Why do I feel like I can't connect with anyone outside my family!!!
Why do I feel like no one even wants to do the same with me??

Am I just a scary/un-happy/un-inviting looking kind of girl?? I don't bite! I promise!

Why can't I have an deep, intelligible conversations?
Why can't I talk about anything more than, "hi, how ya doing? Great! Cool me too!" kinda conversations??

Am I tired right now? Yes.
Stressed about the stupid test this tuesday in a class I JUST had a test in last week? Yes.

So you'd probably do well to just ignore this post anyway.
*sigh*
I'm just

Until next time--
LJ

6 comments:

  1. :( Ohhhh, how I have resonated with ALL of this post. The sun will come out...tomorrow! *bursting into song* (Or maybe the day after...I haven't really checked the weather...)
    Hang in there! I think you're fantastic!

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  2. Oh my word Leah, this is exactly how I have been feeling lately. We actually left the hayrack ride early because I felt this way. Like everyone had their friends and things to talk about and I had no idea what to say to anyone.
    I feel like it has been forever since I have had a meaningful conversation with anyone except my husband, which is fine, but you know talking deeply with another girl would be fun too. Anyway, totally get it. Hope your test goes well next week.

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  3. Ok, weird that I would be the third person to say it, but ME TOO!! Actually, maybe with me it's sort of in reverse, because I feel like I'm the one that's holding back and not really talking to anyone, because I'm not really sure how to sometimes...just like Angie, I feel like my husband is the only person I ever talk to anymore. About school--I know what it's like, and believe it or not, you WILL survive, by God's grace. :) One time a very wise godly older man who was a teacher told me not to worry about grades and just to enjoy the material--he said to act like I was actually there to learn something, and soak up as much as I could out of each class. A's are great, but learning and enjoyment to God's glory are even better! And actually I found I did even better on tests when I took this attitude, because there wasn't so much pressure to perform. Do your best...but remember that whether it was an A or a B+ won't matter much when you're staying home with kids, or taking pictures in Africa, or when you're with Christ in heaven. :)

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  4. hey Leah, I actually just posted on this somewhat, culture in America just sucks at "connecting" people! It's really sad and you're definitely not the only one who has seen that it's not right and wondered why things are like they are. Keep enduring. : ) Oh and I met your husbands brother last week! He seems like a very cool guy. I told him to tell you hi for me!

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  5. Hi, Leah. You probably don't have much time to read but the book "Radical: Taking Back Our Faith from the American Dream" by David Platt is a very inspiring book in regards to missions and living for Christ. Take care...

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  6. Wow, I'm so blessed by these comments....THANKS everybody!
    Methinks I need to have some get togethers with all you ladies from church. :) You all are so wonderful, and I know I could learn a lot from you!

    @Kyle--He told me about that! I'm so glad you guys could meet up! And you're right about the whole "American Culture" thing...I agree!

    @Debbie--you're right, maybe not now during school, but I'll definately check it out this summer!!! (I'll be graduated by then!! Wohoooo!!)

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