Another Post :)

Hello again, digital journal on the internet!

Do you sometimes ever get the feeling you have some really, really deep stuff on your mind and heart, but aren't exactly sure what it is, or how to put it in words even?

Thats what the last few days have been like. I'm sure it's a culmination of a lot of things, but a few things stick in my mind.
I think it mainly has to do with the process of continual sanctification through my marriage.

Ben and I, (probably like many other couples,) have a schedule where we live in a pretty constant pattern, day in...and day out. Some weeks go by where we have done nothing new or different. Which is fine really, we don't necessarily need to always be doing something, and the routine is good for us.

We usually always get along, doing what needs to be done, and collapsing in bed by the end of each day.
But then there are those days.....

The ones where something different and unexpected happens, and suddenly one says something to the other that gets taken wrongly and the other responds in frustration which causes the first to suddenly speak in anger. And then? Chaos.

Yep. I will be the first to admit, we have our moments when we perfectly put on display the fact that we aren't perfect, we're sinners, and we desperately need the help of One who is perfect.

Sometimes, it takes us a little longer than it should to sort out the differences, figure out what went wrong, and speak what we were really trying to say, (or what we were expecting the other to automatically know....guilty!)

Though I in no way condone arguing with your spouse, or letting feelings get hurt, or being upset, etc....when the ash settles after we've come out on the other side of an argument, I always feel like I learned something huge about my husband, or that we end up having some of the best conversation we've had in a long time. A type of conversation that just doesn't exist in the daily grind of life....he works, I cook, he has meetings, I change diapers, go to bed, repeat. You know?

Okay, so our life really isn't that mundane, but at times it feels like we're doing the same thing over and over. So when we do have these conversations, it's like a huge breathe of fresh air.
Each time, I gain more and more respect for my husband.

Sometimes, it's so hard for us wives to know exactly what they do at work, what they go through, how they are so mentally challenged every day.
This last week, we had several good conversations after we resolved an argument that in a weird way, I was almost glad it happened.

Ben told me things about his job and what he's been learning in life that just made me feel so inferior, but not in a bad way....more of a "and Sarah called him lord" kind of way. I was humbled by the fact that he's always given more jobs in a day than he can technically handle, and has to learn to finish them and own each job anyway. His bosses expect them done, and he has to stay so mentally focused for each task to get them all done by their deadlines. Not only does the idea of staying focused apply to his job, but to his work as a deacon in our church as well.

He's learning how to apply so many new things to all areas of his life. Combating the urge to be lazy (though he's never been!), learning to stay on top of all of the things life brings his way, and always coming out on the other side with either a finished job/task, or having a really, really good reason to push the deadlines back, etc.

I have to admit, when I get bogged down with multiple tasks in life, I get stressed and almost collapse under the "pressure" and lose focus all-together. Ben works with massive engineering problems and so many jobs at once I'm sure I would be fired after two days. However, his perseverance and willingness to learn has paid off. He really has met and overcome so many challenges in the past short year of working at his new job, and I couldn't be prouder or have more respect for him.

It's really wonderful when you finally "click" and have a series of conversations that really, truly, help you understand each other in a whole new way.

So, in a round about way, the moral of the story, and the thing I'm probably trying to so un-eloquently say is:
*Though we are imperfect sinners, I'm thankful that God uses even our downfalls to sanctify us, and to make us better people/spouses/children of God.
*I'm extremely thankful for my husband who puts up with me  ;)
* Ben and I are thankful that God is teaching us that despite how different we are as two persons, we can use those differences to be a wonderful team to serve Him and the church together.
*Communication is important :) (yes, Ben, I said it!!)

Until next time,
Much love from the Jung house.


[Peaks and Valleys]

Now this is strange, people....two posts in one week??

I think the only reason I can equate to this is my poor baby is sick and since getting his antibiotics today he's taking a realllly long nap. Though the circumstances aren't ideal, I can't say that I'm not enjoying a few quiet moments :)

I'm taking advantage of this quiet to ramble a little. So if you're actually reading this, I apologize in advance if it's not coherent. I just have to get some things out of my head and onto paper.

So, what is on my mind?
A lot.

I'm sure it's at the Lord's prodding, but recently I've been thinking of what my spiritual life was like just before I got engaged while still single. I feel like I was so much more on target with where I *think* I need to be......Am I the only believer here, who has this "level of godliness" in their mind that they equate with being a decent christian?

Does that make sense?

Like, when I was single...I feel like I had so much more time to be preoccupied with prayer, christian literature, studying the word, being excited about it...and telling others about it. Emphasis on feel, because I'm still not sure I would say back then I was better than am I now, because God has certainly used my marriage and becoming a mother to further sanctify me, but still.......do any of you ever feel that way?
Amidst the hecticness of life, I sometimes feel like I've become callous to certain things....or maybe....much less more emotional and excited than I used to be. Don't freak out internet....it's not like I'm depressed or something, I just want to be more passionate about my relationship with the Lord than I am. I always admire my husband in this-- at times a bit jealous even (I know you're reading this hunny!) but it's true! Your passion for the things of the Lord and your relationship with Him is my example and encouragement to keep on keepin' on. To run the race and finish it well.

I don't want to just let my mind go numb every time I get a break during the day to sit down and breathe for a minute....I want to more proactively think about my relationship with God. I want to more frequently be listening for His still small voice.

Over the holiday break I got way out of line....No devos for almost a week. After my house was finally clear of overnight guests which stayed there for a week....I desperately felt it.
I'm glad though- because it reminds me I am His child...I do have the holy spirit there to prod me when I need it.

Since Christmas break, I'm back in the word and trying hard to stay regular with it (I'm not/never been perfect!!) I've been feeling the Lord show me that I'm not as good as I always imagined myself to be. I needed it. I have a tendency to overlook those sins that christians sometimes brush off as the "little" ones...the ones that aren't "so bad".....Pride.
There's a good book on this topic I had started before life got crazy that I need to work on finishing. There's several others I want to start too...haha!

I digress...back to my point. Being proactive about my relationship with Him....
Recently at our mom's bible study at church, we studied the story of a missionary woman who described her spiritual life as a series of continuous "peaks" and "valleys." She put it into words that I whole heartedly felt and agreed with....something that I never thought of before: when we go through the "darker" times of our spiritual lives, where it feels like we're not as near to the Lord as we'd like to be, it's not that we've started over at square one again, it's likened to a valley. We're just on our way up to a peak, so that we're currently dwelling in the shadow and feeling the loss of the sunlight. Soon we'll be on the peak again though, and so excited to be basking in His warmth and glory, that anything less than that makes us feel worse than we did, (the valley again.)

I'm starting to believe valleys are necessary and inevitable. We are humans with a sin nature....we can never be perfect. And sometimes, we need discipline. Reminds me of a verse one older woman at church reminded me of when I was feeling down once:

“My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord,
nor be weary when reproved by him.
For the Lord disciplines the one he loves,
and chastises every son whom he receives.”
(Hebrews 12:5-6 ESV)

Another thing the Lord has helped me remember in the past few days.....to feel "better" again, I need to remember the gospel. There is a quote I read once which has always stuck with me... "dwell where the cries of calvary are louder than the clamor of the world"...I believe is how it goes.

Once finding the above verse in Heb., I found a few other verses that reminded me of just that:

"But when Christ had offered for all time a single sacrifice for sins, he sat down at the right hand of God, waiting from that time until his enemies should be made a footstool for his feet. For by a single offering he has perfected for all time those who are being sanctified.
And the Holy Spirit also bears witness to us; for after saying,
“This is the covenant that I will make with them
after those days, declares the Lord:
I will put my laws on their hearts,
and write them on their minds,”
then he adds,
“I will remember their sins and their lawless deeds no more.”
(Hebrews 10:12-17 ESV)

He remembers my lawless deeds no more! How awesome is that! So....because of this amazing wonder; I can now do this:

" Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his flesh, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.

(Hebrews 10:19-23 ESV)"

So, there you have it.

I can have full assurance, I have been forgiven of my shortcomings, and to not remember that and thank the Lord for it is a sin all in itself!!

I think that's probably a smaller snipped than what is in my mind at the moment, but I think the rest is all still grey matter that has yet to manifest itself into words. It'll come.....eventually ;)

Until next time,
Love, peace, and lots of starbucks,



[My Career: The Mommy Life]

Hello friends of the great world of the wide web!
I know I really don't blog much, but occasionally, when I'm not chasing the cat off the furniture, doing dishes, laundry, or feeding a very-hungry-little-bear  kid, I do have thoughts every now and then... ;)

I'm definitely not disciplined enough or just don't have time to devote to the daily blog thing, but I like to write every once in a while so I can look back at what grand scheming things were in my mind at the time ;)

Last night, the thought crossed my mind that my life today is nothing I ever expected it to be. And this morning, a photographer's blog I follow mentioned the same thing for herself.

For example- when I was younger (much younger) I even used to promise myself I'd never have kids! (We all know how that turned out...) I didn't always get along with siblings sometimes, and I didn't like it when my baby brother cried....haha! Surprisingly though, I still didn't think I'd want to have children all the way up until I was about 18 or so. I think college and the prospects of maybe meeting my husband someday changed that opinion ;)

So, how is my life different than what I expected? It mainly goes back to the whole idea of my "career" and education, I think.
I think after the combination of graduating high school (where the counselors made a huge deal about your career/future), entering college, and ending a high-school relationship, I was truly concerned about my career, and where I would be employed someday. I didn't want to live with my parents forever, and wanted to have a life of my own. I felt like I was responsible to provide. So, naturally... I went to college.

There, I worked for an advisor/student events director, and both he and his wife worked full-time (despite having 2 kids)-- and so of course, he was always encouraging me to be successful too. And, at this point, I had no prospects of being married any time soon, so of course I worked hard to find where God wanted me to go. In my opinion, (pause here to pick up container of cheerios that was just dumped out on the floor...) I believe I was doing the right thing-- working, finishing college, looking for future employers, etc. But, when God brought Ben into my life, my horizons started changing.

After my 2nd year at college started, (Ben and I were dating at this point) I became unsure about the degree I was working on in graphic design, and didn't like any of the local firms our class had visited and interviewed. I just couldn't picture myself behind a desk all day. If anything, my heart still longed to be behind a camera...but my school didn't offer a photography degree. I started questioning my future a lot at this point. I think Ben was the drop that started my tidal waves of emotion and unsureness, but it was probably for the good. God was changing my perspective of what my life would be from what I had always pictured it being.

I remember journaling a lot about this topic, and talking to a lot of older mentors. Am I going for the right degree? God has me at this school here for a reason, right? Why does that include school debt? Do I really want a g.d. degree? What about photography? .... etc. 

Well, by the end of the year and a half of knowing/dating each other, you know the story....Ben proposed. It was the instigator for much change. We discussed a lot of options for me, and ended up concluding that I should just transfer schools, wrap up with an associates degree (cheap!), and Ben encouraged me to do what I really loved: photography. And we did!

This is just exactly what I never imagined doing, however. My whole curricular life, (especially in high school for some reason), I felt like I was doing what I was doing so I could go to a 4 year and graduate with honors and get a great job! And I had worked so hard till that point... pushed myself to the limits, many sleepless nights and tear stained tests with not-good-enough-grades, and gained many pounds of stress to prove it. It had been drilled into my brain for so many years, that it was such a strange feeling to go against the tide and be different than the world. Or what the world expected.

I got slack for it too. Mostly from the advisors at my college, and especially the one I worked for. He and the other lady who worked with us in the office seemed to be questioning Ben and I when we told them we were getting married....as if we had no idea what we were doing, and were making a horrible mistake.
The world's plan says, you don't get married until you're established and have lots of $$$$ for a nice house, car, kids, etc, etc. Ben and I knew there was a higher calling involved however....God's plan.

Well, most of you know how the story goes from here....We were married, I finished up an A.A. at Butler, and then at graduation I was about 2 or 3 months pregnant with Ethan. Had I ever imagined this is how my 'career' would begin?
Not what I ever expected.

An associates? Married by age 20??!! Working meager jobs until Ethan's arrival, and then staying home?

Definitely not what I expected. But what God expected.

I'm so thankful He knew what He was doing when he started my "career" out at little ol' McCollom Elementary school-- my life which involves chasing after a toddler, a cat, and keeping up with friends around the corner. There's much more to my life that that of course, and photography still is a big part of my life, thanks to my loving husband, but it still amazes me to think of where I am now.

And yes, it is a career. At times I think it's more important than any job I could have ever taken. It is to serve my husband and to raise our child(ren). To serve our neighbors, and friends. To be a witness. To be a working part of our local church body. To clean, cook, do laundry, pick up cheerios and everything in between. And, though this life is nothing I ever expected or dreamed of doing...I love it.

No amount of schooling or college could ever prepare me for what I am doing now, and no idea of the world's would have ever told me I should quit school and pursue it. But we did. And the Lord has over and abundantly blessed us with exactly what we needed at the exact times when we needed it. He has been so faithful and good to us. I just can't wait to see what else He has in store for the year 2013. Who knows? Maybe I'll be promoted from having two mouths to feed to 3! ;)

(And no...that doesn't mean I'm pregnant! ha!)

Much love from the Jung House,



[Time Flies]


Seriously. It's been ages since I've written. I used to blog all the time when I was single....where'd the time go?

Does anyone even read this anymore? Or am I rambling on a white screen to nameless faces on the internet? Get ready for some stream of consciousness ;)

I can't believe Ethan is already 13 months, we're in our first ever own house, and we're settled in with Ben's job, etc. etc. It was fun to re-read what I had written many months ago.

God has seriously amazed me.

Is it bad that I'm sitting around kind of wondering what He expects from us now? Like....why has He blessed us with so much??
I try to not to think of it that way, because it's wrong to think that God would only give us things based on our actions....I just read a passage in Deut. that proves that thinking wrong. It's not like we've EVER done anything good to deserve anything in the first place.....whether big or small.

Anyway....I guess I'll just come out and say the times have been challenging lately, internet people.

I feel like this whole life transition of owning our own home, getting adjusted to Ben's never-ending work hours, etc., has brought us to a whole new stretching/learning point in our marriage.

I feel like we keep failing at this communication thing again!! Why can't we just get it right? I mean.....we've been married for 3 years....we should have some feeling of how things work,....right?

I know.....many would disagree and say 3 years isn't long at all, and we'll be learning the rest of our lives...blah, blah, blah.....but in the mean time. Just, blah. I wish I could just figure out how/why the guy does what he does, ya know?

I wish I wasn't such a sensitive person! I'm learning more and more to give up and let things happen how they happen and not worry/want things how I imagine them to be. Things don't have to perfect. The house doesn't have to be spotless to be a good wife....I just need to keep learning. I'm sure God has a reason for all the things he keeps throwing at me lately. To teach me. To show me that He loves me. To teach me to trust Him. It's just that thing called sin nature that so often holds me back.

Still learning....

Anyway. Enough rough stuff.

I like writing, internet. Even if its not really to anyone, or if no soul ever reads this. It's just relaxing.

My kiddo is yelling at me from his room. Nap-time/mommy time is over.

Much Love,



I think since becoming a mom....I've noticed something. Something in the world of moms that I don't like.

Facebook, and social media have allowed many to complain, have a pity party, worry, compare (the worst!!!), judge, envy, etc.

With the growing technological word we all have this crazy desire to know whats going on, and to make sure everyone knows whats going on--whether it should be posted or not---and it all happens with the click of a button. I'm not sure I would have Facebook if it weren't for advertising purposes for my business, or for the sake of relatives across state and in other countries who want to hear about Ethan. Other than that....it's sort of ridiculous.

I've been frustrated with how negative people are. No one thinks anymore--no one thinks about what they say, how it will come across, or dare to even think of what the motive of their hearts or purpose of posting/saying certain things is.

I've been reading a new book: "Respectful Sins: Confronting the Sins We Tolerate" by Jerry Bridges.

Can't put it down. So convicting and so good. Go read it, please! I'm only in chapter 3, but so far, it has dealt with the things I've been thinking about lately.

Anyway...that's what I've been thinking lately. My hubby is probably the only one who will appreciate this since I have a hard time articulating whats on my mind when he asks me too. ;)

Until next time--


[WAY overdue.]

Well....I'm obviously not an avid blogger. Last time I made a post, Ethan was 23 days away from his due date...haha! My sweet baby is now 7 months old! I can't believe how time has flown! Maybe that will explain why I haven't written in so long ;)

Really, maybe I'll just write a little bit about everything I've missed so far.
Maybe I'll start with his birth day? Wow. I'm so behind. I'll intermit some photos from our recent family shoot with Zao Photography because pictures make reading stories better :)

For those who don't know the story--Ethan's original due date was Nov. 9. He was born on Oct. 22.
Two days before he was born (thurs. the 20th), I got the stomach flu (or something) really bad. I couldn't eat or drink anything and keep it down. I hadn't been that sick in a LONG time. Needless to say it started some contractions, and they got worse as it went on into the night. Finally the nurse at my OBGYN told me to head to the hospital. My mom was afraid I was too dehydrated. Long story short--I was really dehydrated--they gave me 2 bags of IV and sent me home around 4am. (ug!) My mom and my hubby were such troopers and were there with me through the whole thing. Ben even made it back in to work by noon or so the next day.

Funny enough, my friend from work had planned a baby shower for me that following night (friday), and despite some pretty uncomfortable contractions, I went. It was a great time, and I got through it, but after everyone had left and we were standing around talking to my parents at their place, the contractions really started to hurt. My mom looked at me and told me I'd be having a baby by the next day. I almost didn't believe her! She walked me through some quick breathing techniques (I still hadn't taken the classes...) and then Ben and I went home so I could try and "rest."

After being in pain and not moving from my couch the once home- by 4am or so, Ben and I realized my contractions were about 4 min. apart and about 30 seconds each. I was in labor!! I was kind of in shock! After all, I thought I still had at least 2 weeks left! We called my mom and she and my sis met us at Wesley birth center where they got me all settled in.

Funny thing is--I always thought I would be TERRIFIED of the epidural, but by the time they were able to give it to me I was begging for it!! Ha! This was around noon or so, and by 2pm or so ( I forgot the time!! I need to go look it up...) Ethan James Jung was born! :)

Funny story: Ben and I didn't decide between the two names we were debating on until Ethan's birthday. I was relaxing in the whirlpool in the hospital with Ben, and we finally picked the first name then. We're terrible! Haha!

The whole experience was the most amazing thing I've ever gone through. It all happened SO fast though, I often wish I could relive it again. Although, we hope to have another one in the future sometime, so that wish may come true :) (An no...I'm not preggo ;)

Sooo much has happened since then, and I won't try to cover it all in this post...but being a full-time mom is the most incredible, rewarding job ever. I never imagined being a full time mom, really....but I so understand why God made and designed families to work this way. I'm so thankful Ben enjoys his job as much as I like mine, too. Despite his long hours, we really are blessed by such a perfect fit of a job for him, and are thankful for God's provision in that area.

In the mean time, I get to do my photography business out of home, and I think I update my photo blog more than I do this one. Here's the link if you haven't seen it yet! :)

Thanks for reading, if you actually read all of this---it was a long one! I'll try to do more updating next time.

Love from the Jung house!


[The Lord's promises are true!]

My friends,

I cannot explain how ecstatic I am about God's provision for us lately....

Most of it involves how we had "planned" out our path for our future not too long ago, but how God instead changed our steps. :) (Prov. 16.9)

We'll start with what our "plans" were. 

10 or 11 months ago, when practically every couple in our church was pregnant, I was inside, *dying* to have one of our own. (ok, so maybe dying was exaggerating, but I reaaaallly wanted to have a baby too. Which is ironic because growing up I promised I'd never have kids....huh....mom was right ;) 

So people would always tease us, and ask when WE would jump on board and get pregnant too!! The thing was, Ben was/is still in school, and at that point, we didn't know if he would be provided with a better paying job, or if we'd have to go out of state to find one. Logically speaking, it's good to have finances prepared so you can pay for your baby's needs, right?? We wanted to be good stewards of the money God did give us.

Well, it's not like we ever "worried" about our money or God's provision of a job for Ben in the future, but we certainly wanted time to pass and things to fall in place so we could make a "plan" and start our family too. At this point, (and don't judge) I was still on a form of birth control due to said above "plans" but it was starting to make me fee sick sometimes, we had to pay out of pocket for it, and it was just a big huge pain. We decided it wasn't the best method for us, and wanted to try natural birth control instead. 

Well.....we all know how well this new form worked for us :P After being off the birth control I was on, I discovered I was pregnant (!!!!!) not more than 2 months after stopping it. 
Of COURSE we were super excited and amazed at the thought of being parents finally, but this left the plans we had for our future completely erased in the sand. First provision in this whole thing was a very nice house to rent, complete with an office and a room just for baby :) This still left the question of a better job for Ben, however. We would be extremely tight on a budget including a new baby, and the pay Ben was currently receiving. 

So, God knew our desire to have a baby, but he also knew how He would provide for us too. 
Ben had been working diligently to find a job or internship through his program at school. Not long later, he got into a program called NIAR through WSU which does engineering contract work for other big local wichita companies. Through it, he was able to make contact with Hawker Beechcraft, who offered him his internship which was needed to complete his senior year!!! This internship has gone very well for him, he likes his boss a lot, and the guy has offered to help Ben in any way he can. 
Hawker had basically told him he had a full time position open after the internship was completed, but Ben was toying with whether or not he actually liked the type of work he was involved in. 

Lo and behold, out of God's sovereignty, Ben gets a call from my dad's manager at Koch Glitch here in wichita asking if he would like to come in for an interview for an engineering position there!!! My dad had recommended Ben to this guy 2 or maybe more months ago, but had never heard anything, and so decided they weren't interested in him anymore. God had different plans though!! 

Ben had two interviews, one conference call, and one on-site, 4 hour interview. He came home from both kinda down though, thinking he had totally messed it up, and that they weren't impressed with him. I knew it was nothing to worry over, and tried to encourage him that if this was the right job, God would open the doors for him no matter how "bad" he thought he did. (Even though I know he did perfectly fine ;) 

So, about a week later, we get the email---Koch chose Ben!! (2 other random facts, this is the FIRST year Koch has been willing to hire WSU grads, and let me also note, Ben isn't even GRADUATED yet!!!!!!!) How awesome is God???? 
Ben was able to get out of the Koch HR lady that all 4 men interviewing Ben unanimously decided upon him as their choice to hire. She said this almost NEVER happens. *Wow!!!* 

So, Ben has as of yesterday, officially accepted the position at Koch, and funny enough, will be a few cubicles away from my dad. The pay and benefits are great! With the amount he'll be making from this "real" job, we feel like millionaires, though it is not one iota even close to that :P 
Another cool thing about how God worked this out?? 

According to our budget spreadsheet, January was going to be reaaaalllly tight in terms of money that month. But now, Koch has offered to let Ben (upon his request) start in mid december, which will relieve some of the strictness we were going to have to worry about during Jan. Jehovah Jirah!! 

Every little thing has me reeling at how awesome He is, when we trust in Him to provide. I am continually reminded of the passage starting in Luke 12:22. We have no need to worry about any trivial need in our lives! 
The passage talks specifically about clothing, and not to "worry about what you will put on..." and I can attest to this promise too. 
I was starting to get down to slim pickings in my closet in terms of maternity clothes...like, maybe 2 or 3 shirts, and 2 pairs of pants that fit well and that I would wear in public. God knew I wasn't really looking to go out and buy a ton of stuff, because it's expensive, and because I'll get less than a year's use out of them at this point.....and so He provided. A mommy friend at church lent me a whole BAG of clothes that fit me to a "T"!!! I couldn't have been happier. 

All this and God continues to provide us even more abundantly. We had some friends randomly send us a note in the mail today with a check for what seems like a huge amount to us--for no reason. My jaw sorta hit the floor after opening it. 

So, back to the whole Luke 12 passage. It rings true to me every day lately. When you set your eyes on what God has planned for you, and not what YOU want in life, He will provide for everything else in your life. 
This is to say, Ben and I have had several outside trials that don't really involve us, yet still involve us and a need to intervene in some of them, and this has given us a lot of room for growth in communication, in love, and support of each other. This last several months has been a great growing and stretching experience for us, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I know God brings so many things into our lives for a reason, and funny as it seems, so many of them seem to hit at the same time. Yet He knows how much we can handle, and how we will learn and grow spiritually from it--which we so desperately NEED in light of the fact that in about a month's time, we will be PARENTS!!!! :D 

Another thing about God's timing with this baby---

Most of you don't know: my grandmother, her sister, and my own mom had either breast or ovarian cancer. The two cancers stem from one gene; I was tested for it a few years back and do have it. Basically, if you've had a hysterectomy, the cancer will (obviously) bypass your ovaries and attack the breasts, if you haven't had the said operation, you will contract the more deadly and hard to detect ovarian cancer. 

Because of this, several years ago, my doctor told me to have my kids early if I could, and then think about the operation. I am probably at risk of getting it by my mid 30's or early 40's. Screenings have to start around age 25.
It's definitely not something I really worry about anymore, but I do believe God has worked his hand in having us start our family now so that it won't cause problems in the future. We're not sure how many little ones we want in our family for sure, but for now, at least one is on the way, and hopefully we'll be allowed at least one more before my health becomes an issue. (Which may or may not...we'll see.) 

Anway....Oodles of props to you who actually made it this far....this is such a long post! 
I've just been so excited about how God has been providing for us lately, I have to tell about it! 

(Now watch, just to humble me more, my house will burn down next week ;) haha!) 

Much love from the Jung family,